In God We Trust

In God We Trust

To be human is to experience broken trust.



As I look at my title, it makes me sad to think how far our country has strayed from having a "firm reliance" on God. But whenever I view "my country", I have to turn the view finder back to myself, for I am a small piece of this vast, multifaceted country.

What happens when we lose trust in one we love? Or maybe worse yet, lose trust in ourselves?

Usually we are sent rushing to our foundation-to see where our trust ultimately lies...people, things, family, technology...ourselves?

I lost trust in myself...I failed myself in a way that I never dreamed I would. If I can't do this, And i believed I absolutely could...then who can I trust...NO ONE...ugh.

Then i lost trust in a close friend...and again in my own protection, that I thought I was providing...who can I trust...no one...can I even trust God's protection? I know I must...even though I don't understand it.

I cried today (inside and out), I told God I hurt. I still hurt, but it helps knowing He heard me.

Even though I don't understand God sometimes, I know Him and I find my comfort in that. He won't leave me or those I love....and that is where I place my wounded, broken trust today. In time I will give it to out to others, but I am reminded today, that I need to have a large portion of my trust placed in Him first, then others. Not the other way around...

So, God take my trust...treat it gently and strengthen it I pray.

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